Here I am at 4:30 a.m. I woke in the middle of the night, suddenly worried about my last blog entry. I thought it might send out the wrong signal, particularly to a couple of my friends who know I'm doing this. So, I've logged on and toned it down.

A word about how I write may be in order. Sometimes if I'm thinking about something, I have the outline of an entry already in my head when I log on. Other times, I spew out free association. Regardless of the initial draft, I am a person who edits (and re-edits). I try not to edit the original ideas and the entry's original basic format (i.e., paragraphs generally stay the way they were originally written), but I'll go back and tighten up sentences, up to whole paragraphs, to make an idea more clear. I also clean up punctuation and misspellings (if I catch 'em!). There's a bell-curve here, there's a certain point to leave well enough alone.

I won't go on too much about the objectives of this blog here: I've covered that some in other posts. But I will touch base on the relationship of these entries by themselves with the rest of my life. For example, if you have been one of the lucky who reads these entries, you'll see that I'm not looking forward to moving from a location I like to a location I don't like. Future blogentries will no doubt go into nauseating detail as to why I feel that way. And so the blog may -- probably! -- come off darker than how it plays in "real life".

But it's not a vacuum. If you were to eavesdrop on my conversations, you would hear some overlap to this blog, but not entirely and sometimes not at all. Using the "decision to move" example above, I talked long and intensely with friends and family, including everyone you may have been introduced here, about that decision. Should I? Is there a way to avoid it? Will our friendships remain intact if I move an hour away? For better or worse, I'm moving -- and my friends are supportive.

A word on blogethics -- if there is such a thing. I wondered if, by changing a few words of my last entry to "tone it down", I changed the expression of my initial emotion and break my objective of "keepin' it real, (man)." No, I believe the original expression is still there, loud and clear. More generally, another blogethical issue is too-personal references: I have changed some names to initials, for example. But since I'm writing about me me me, there are enough facts included here that someone could, perhaps, figure out the corporate entity for which I so happily work; and while maybe not the specific address, the neighborhood at least, where I live. So far, anyways, that's a chance I am willing to take in the process of freely expressing my thoughts and ideas.

And a final note (to myself and to you dear readers) on blogging: This has engaged me, not only hopefully making me a better writer, but maybe also as a thinker. I don't think I put "improve my writing" or "improve my critical thinking" as any blogobjective (ha ha ha!), but that might be what is happening -- and good! I've been writing constantly and continually the last few months. I continue to keep a handwritten journal, and there's my short story and script ideas. This is a good thing. I don't know if any of this will go anywhere. They don't have to, because I already *am* going somewhere just by doing this. I love it!

Should I go back to bed? I have made a pot of coffee. Here's a final, most ironic, item: I began a project at work yesterday, and I'm half thinking of getting ready for work *now* to continue with it...! And, in case I don't get a chance to jot a line later, and since I know you're all hanging on the edge of your seats wishing to know my weekend plans: I'm going to a party and maybe to Tall Stacks -- a big enough local shindig to initiate Homeland Security security.